Ugh. Last night was awful. John was up all night. I got less than two hours worth of sleep in the end. I’m not totally sure how I made it through college today, lol.

Basically I couldn’t really sleep anyway because I was worrying about my mum and going back to school and stuff and John woke up just after I went to sleep. He was feeling sick when he woke up which caused him to panic that he was going to have a seizure. When he feels like that he gets up every ten minutes or so and goes to the bathroom until my mum goes and sits in his room with him. He doesn’t really do being quiet so I get woken up and then my mum kind of freaked out at about 3am because she isn’t well and she’s tired and she’s taken on too much work and she just needed to sleep. She wasn’t even angry at John, it was at the lack of help that we get. We’re spoken to doctors about this problem before and they don’t even appear to hear it. They just smile at you and send you on your way. And our area epilepsy nurse turned out to be as useless as the rest of them. She still hasn’t phone us back and it’s been a week now.

My mum freaking out made John worse so everyone was up for longer and I could hear my mum and John talking which was what lead me to be dancing around my kitchen lip synching to Birdhouse In Your Soul at 4.30am. I’m so tired today. I eventually went back to bed properly at about 5.30 and it was 6.30 the last time I checked my clock. I had to get up at 7.30, lol. It was all right though, my mum didn’t make me get the train, she dropped me and John in. It meant that I was a bit late but the EMA lady was really understanding and I won’t lose any which is a relief.

If I don’t sleep well tonight I think I might skip college tomorrow. I know that is such a wimpy thing to do but I feel terrible, and there’s really no way of knowing what John’s going to be like tonight.

NaNoWriMo is actually going really well. I’ve written over 5000 words already, which puts me ahead. It was helpful that I got so much done yesterday because it made up for the fact that I was a bit useless with it all today.

I love Birdhouse In Your Soul. It just makes me happy.

Track: Birdhouse In Your Soul – They Might Be Giants