Biscuits biscuits biscuits. Weight weight weight. Cereal cereal cereal. Weight weight weight. Actual meal. Stomach pains. God knows.
Breakaways will end me. They are so good. They are the ultimate biscuit. The chocolate on them is so good. I wish Breakaways were bigger. Eating one big one instead of loads of small ones would make me feel much less greedy.
My gran and I had a totally unexpected bonding session yesterday. I'm usually really useless around family because I can't talk to people. Plus we have nothing in common and I have to be really careful how I talk when I'm around her. My language has got a little.. well, my mum isn't happy with it basically lately and I really can't express as much around my gran because she gets offended really easily.
Which is why the bonding session was such a suprise.
We share a mutual hate of Hugh. Really. We were bitching for ages, it was so much fun. It felt really good to sit down and have a conversation and say what I wanted without being told off for it. She agreed with me on everything. Like, my mum is always saying that how Hugh is isn't his fault, and that he doesn't understand stuff when he totally does. He's just being manipulative. Whenever I say that here my mum gets pissed off with me but my gran was like "I know! Why can't she see it?"
Ah. So awesome.
My cousin also seemed to like me. To start off with she saw me and started crying which was slightly awkward. By the end of the day she had gone nuts though. 2 year olds can run for a really long time.
It was actually quite strange, seeing her being a small person in that house. I have so many memories of being little there. John and me messing about. Yeah. It was weird.
It is quite weird for me seeing my uncle with Cate as well. Me and my uncle were actually pretty close at one point. I used to think he was so awesome and I loved him to peices. The way he acts with Cate kind of reminds me of how he used to act with me when I was a kid. It makes me kind of sad since I can't even speak to him now. I sort of get the feeling he doesn't like me very much. Ah well.
Me and Gill had our usual book talk and she's lent me a Neil Gaiman book, so I'm happy 
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Yeah. Yesterday was a lot better than I thought it was going to be.
I felt kind of sorry for my mum's friend though. He did my usual part. Looking terrified. It's a shame really, that he makes me feel so like... threatened, I guess. Because he's actually really nice. For now anyway. I don't think it'll last. But yeah. Right now, he's nice and funny and stuff.
I don't feel so good today. I sort of tried to explain some stuff to my mother and it didn't go well. She got mad. As she usually does. So then I had to say sorry. Saying sorry when you've made someone annoyed kind of scares me. I mean, you never know if it's something they want you to say sorry for or if bringing it up again will make them more annoyed and want to talk about it which is the last thing I want to do.
Eh. I don't know.
I'm going to watch Ugly Betty because I missed it yesterday I love it for it's blatant ridiculousness.
Track: Nerdfighterlike - Lauren Fairweather
