So that's prom over and done with. The photos are all over Facebook. I look awful in every single one. Since that's the one night you're meant to look okay that is a bit depressing.
The prom itself wasn't that great - definitely not worth all of that build up. The second we got there everyone separated off into their cliques and stayed that way for the rest of the evening. There was dancing that I didn't join in with. I didn't want to, lol. I can't dance. People tried to force me. It wasn't good.

After the prom me and Kailee came back to my house to get changed and then headed over to the after party.
It was really strange, actually. Like, every two seconds for a while it hit us that we were at a popular person party and that that was really, really weird.
I drank too much. Far too much. I don't even know why. I think that after the last few days I just wanted to have fun and not think about anything for a little while. I won't be doing that again, trust me. All the throwing up so wasn't worth it. I am lucky that Beany's mum is so understanding about that kind of stuff.
It's my own fault. There was alcohol everywhere and I just ended up having far too much. There was this bowl full of god knows what that I drank. There were guys goinf round asking everyone to pour something of what they had it, then they were daring people to drink some. I did it. Twice. Urgh. So, so disgusting.
And then there was this whole thing with this guy. Another reason a drank as much as I did actually. Whenever I think I might like someone I immediately try and push them on someone else. I don't even know why. Half the time I don't even remember making the concious decision to do it. So yeah, I did that and it appeared to work which depressed me.

Seriously though. I think I'm giving up on the whole drinking thing. How awful I felt yesterday really wasn't worth it. And I had to lie to my mum a bit, which I hate doing. She just isn't at all understanding about anything to do with drinking. I don't know. I just think it's something teenagers do, but she doesn't see it that way.

I felt so horrible yesterday.

Next time I see that Don't Mix Drinks thing I think I'm going to listen. My puke was bright pink. You didn't need to know that.

Track: OUCH - Be Your Own Pet