Angst? Me? Never.

So I've been doing coursework pretty much all day and will be doing all da tomorrow and every lunch time next week until my child development has to be given in. Because of the dreaded "holiday" I have to get it done by Thursday 'cause I can't do in on the Thursday.

Anyway, so I was doing my work when I got stuck so I went onto google looking for links between creative play and emotional development and I found this. It's about how the ridiculous amount of toys kids have these days isn't actuallt helpful to them. This is a part of the report:

It turns out that all that time spent playing make-believe actually helped children develop a critical cognitive skill called executive function. Executive function has a number of different elements, but a central one is the ability to self-regulate. Kids with good self-regulation are able to control their emotions and behavior, resist impulses, and exert self-control and discipline.

Psychologist Elena Bodrova at Mid-Continent Research for Education and Learning says
‘We know that children’s capacity for self-regulation has diminished. A recent study replicated a study of self-regulation first done in the late 1940s, in which psychological researchers asked kids ages 3, 5 and 7 to do a number of exercises. One of those exercises included standing perfectly still without moving. The 3-year-olds couldn’t stand still at all, the 5-year-olds could do it for about three minutes, and the 7-year-olds could stand pretty much as long as the researchers asked. In 2001, researchers repeated this experiment. “Today’s 5-year-olds were acting at the level of 3-year-olds 60 years ago, and today’s 7-year-olds were barely approaching the level of a 5-year-old 60 years ago,” Bodrova explains. “So the results were very sad.’

In other studies, children with poor executive function had trouble waiting, co-operating and would be more inclined to say something that would offend. Teenagers would need more help with organizing themselves, deciding the importance of tasks and sticking with a project for a long period. These children were more likely to be involved in crime and drop out of school.

However; children who had good executive function were more easily able to exercise self confidence, solve problems and monitor their responses. The result of this is that they were better able to learn, concentrate and get on with others.

As executive function researcher Laura Berk explains, “Self-regulation predicts effective development in virtually every domain.” And is a more reliable guide to success than IQ.
The same was discovered in the famous 1960’s ‘marshmallow test’ where children of four years old were given a marshmallow and asked to wait twenty minutes before eating it; if they did they would get an extra one. The researchers followed them into adolescence and found that those children who were able to defer gratification were better adjusted and more dependable.
So how is this achieved? In make-believe play children do a great deal of ‘private talk.’ Berk say’s that this is where we talk our way through what we plan to do. This helps us when we are older to organize our lives, solve problems, exercise restraint and a whole host of other complex cognitive skills.

I thought that was really interesting. I don't really know how to incorperate it into my coursework right now though. I guess I'm finding it so interesting because it kind of relates to the book I've just finished reading. It was this sociology one I mentioned a while ago, The Story Of Childhood - Growing Up In Modern Britain by Libby Brooks. It's really, really interesting.

If you're interested theirs a link to info about it here:

http://www.guardian.co.uk/theobserver/2006/jul/09/society

I love all this kind of stuff. Maybe at AS I#ll have managed to pick subjects that I'll actually enjoy. I really hope so.

Speaking of which I have the interveiw at the college I actually want to go to on Monday. Eeek. Although the guy that's interveiwing me is apparently lovely.

Top 4 coursework albums:

4. Seldom Seen Kid - Elbow
3. Absolute Garbage - Garbage
2. Exile In Guyville - Liz Phair
1. Only By The Night - Kings Of Leon

Track: Be Somebody - Kings Of Leon

Tired. And not on my computer so this post will probably be really crap. I just had my tutor. It didn't go well. I don't understand anything at GCSE and yet I was stupid enough to think that I might be able to do it at A-level. Although hopefully applied isn't this hard. Plus I don't know that there is definately any point in my doing Applied because universities might not accept it anyway and I was supposed to e mail places but I didn't.

Mum and Hugh are pretending to break up again. They won't, and I know it so I don't even care. I hope he's miserable.

My friend had a death in her family yesterday. Or maybe Monday evening, I don't know. Someone else that she had told told me but then I didn't want to say anything because I wanted to wait for her to tell me and then she texted me and told me and now I don't know what to do. Well, she texted me and told me last night and I told her I was here when she wanted to talk and when she didn't. I've known her almost 3 years now, and I've learnt that she tends not to talk about things while they're going on, but waits until things have calmed down a bit before she you know.. opens up. So today I didn't say anything about it. Like, I asked how she was and then I tried to act normal. Loads and people are being all patronising and "Are you okaaaaayyyy?" everytime they see her and she looks a bit awkward with that so hopefully what I'm doing is for the best. I hope she doesn't think I don't care. I really do. She just seemed a bit better today not talking about it, so I don't want to force her to if she's got herself into a... if not okay at least functioning state. I don't know what to do. Beany said we should just say something but I don't know. I don't want to push her.

I feel really useless.

Stuff like this happens and it makes me want to kick myself for being sad a lot since my problems are so damn insignificant. I wish I could think that and then just be ok, but it doesn't seem to work like that.

So that pretty much wraps this up.

Track: Drowning Lessons - My Chemical Romance

I have to go back to school tomorrow.

I have to say this has probably been my most appreciated half term ever. Really. I haven't actually spoken to any of my close friends the whole time. I think this has been a good thing.

I kind of don't know if I want to see them tomorrow.

No, that's not true. I want to see them, but I don't want to feel like I'm.. less than they are. I have a big problem with comparing myself with people at the moment.

Lol, because of it I haven't done half the coursework I should have 'cause work reminds me how much smarter my friends are than me.

I'm getting kind of panicky at the prospect of going back. Because of have to horrible and jealous all the time without them knowing.

I swear I haven't always been like this, but lately... it's is all I think about.

Oh well. I will immerse myself in anime. That'll solve everything (!)

Track: Screening Process - Lauren Fairweather

I have to go to Yorkshire.

Oh, god.

I hate Yorshire. No offence to any Yorkshirians. I just always have a really crappy time because holidays drag up issues.

We're pretty much going because of me.

Well. It was Hugh's idea. But it was me that persuaded my mum she should go. Because it would be good for her AND for her relationship with Hugh.

I hate Hugh. I hate the dales.

Omg someone help me.

I could totally have been like "no" and we wouldn't have gone.

I really think someone should be paying me for this stuff.

I can't believe I have to spend THREE WHOLE DAYS with Hugh. For the last few months he's be coming round once a week (hence the lack of moaning about him. I never really see him anymore).

Three days.

Three days.

I might actually die.

Or throw myself in front of a tractor.

Actually that would be kind of painful. (Kind of.)

ANYWAY

Try brighten the mood.

My cousin, Cate. Because she is cute and lovely and kind of makes child development worth it.

On that note, I'm getting back to my coursework.

Track: Fences - Paramore

So this morning while I was doing Child d. coursework I decided to learn the guitar again instead.

This time I think I've found a song I actually have a chance of playing

http://www.myspace.com/lianeandthemusic

Click on Looking For Alaska

It's great. And she's helpful and has put the chords in her blog.

I've been doing this a while now and all I have to say this this: F sharp minor is a bitch. The rest are easy to get to and the changes are ok... if it wasn't for F Sharp minor.

Who cares about coursework? I'm done with being academically average, now I'm going to be musically terrible. I'll take my four chords on the road and become a rockstar.

ALSO while I'm here I saw Slumdog Millionaire yesterday and it is so so so so so so so so so so so so GOOD! I can definitely see why it won all of the awards now. Also I want to look like the main girl. She is so pretty and I am so jealous.

Anyway, back to doing permernant damage to my hands now.

Track: Looking For Alaska - Liane Graham

So how was the universal Valentine's Day?

Mine was alright. Just like any other day, really. It was better not being at school. At school it's depressing. Yesterday I didn't even think about it the majority of the time. I wasn't expecting anything. Lol, I didn't even want anything. All the guys I know right now are friends and no more than - so getting anything would have been seriuosly awkward.
It was odd at my dad's though. We were talking and then he randomly came out with "So what's the card count this morning then?" and I genuinely didn't kow what he was talking about! When I said 0 he made a really big deal out of it. Same thing happened with my gran. Truly odd.

I am getting so angry with my Mandy. I don't understand why she seems to resent me and John so much. It makes no sense. She's just making a point out of disagreeing with everything that I say or like. Half of her arguments don't even make sense, she's just saying stuff ourely for the purpose of being bitchy. How much dad is completely under the thumb is annoying too. Urgh, they sicken me.

So tonight I'm going to see Slumdog Millionaire with my mum, John, Hugh and Hugh's parents. Oh I'm kewl . I hate roughly half the company. But it was either go out with them or stay here on my own not seeing a film I want to see just to make a point. And that would be stupid. I hope it is a good film considering all the hype is got.

Time to go

Track: Teenage Werewolf - The Remus Lupins

It's finally half term It'll be good to have a break. Well "break". I've been set so much work to do and I have so much coursework to catch up on I don't think that I can exactly call it that. Still. It'll be nice to be able to get up when I want. (Actually I can't do that either. I really have to go jogging most days which requires me to get up at 7.30).

I've had kind of a sad couple of days. First thing yesterday morning I had a dead guinea pig to deal with which was really sad She was five so I guess I should have seen it coming but i just didn't. I feel really bad for the other one too 'cause she's always had her sister there and now that she doesn't.. she must be sad . I cried so much It was really embarassing then having to go into school.
I went to see my schools production of Hair last night too. It was good. Well, I didn't have a clue what was going on through the majority of it but the songs were good. So many of the girls in my school have amazing singing voices. Oh, and the guy that played the clown in our Media Studies film was the main guy.

OOOH speaking of Media Studies our film got full marks!

Track: And Then I Died - The Moaning Myrtles

I want one!

http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/world/asia-pacific/7883266.stm?lss

Poor thing

So today was actually ok. We had sun which was kind of unbelievable.

Is anybody other than me watching that Boys And Girls Alone thing on channel 4? It's really interesting. Like, everything that you'd expect is happening with the girls. They've split off into groups and everything. It was kind of funny, because with most of them the second that you saw them you knew they were bitches. They didn't even have to open their mouths. So there was this one girl in particular, one of the older ones and she was sort of... Queen Bee. She's this total bitch who all the other bitches follow and I had no simpathy with her whatsoever for a long time because when I was in primary school I was in a whole class of girls like her and it was TIRING.
But then in yesterday's episode all the girls seemed to turn against her after one of the younger girls took and a stand and moved out of her house. After that this girl who was obviously VERY used to being in charge was left on her own to think about stuff. As you can imagene she didn't like that much.
Anyway, after the annoying interveiwer woman had been talking to her a while it came out that her parents had separated a couple of years ago. She said what had happened was that they didn't get on for a long time then her mum started seeing someone else, which she had thought everyone (including her) had known apart from her dad. Then when he found out he was all "did you know?!" to her and it was obvious she felt really bad for him and everything (they're all together still and he lives alone).
So that sort of explained that. Which was interesting. I'll try and think about that next time some random girl is being a bitch to me. (which granted doesn't happen much anymore. People have grown up a lot since year 7. But still, it's a good thing to keep in mind).

I will keep in mind the Paper Towns thing with Beany too.

Today she told me I had no personality. And that the only girl in our whole year (other than her. Obviously) who has an actual personality is this girl who is a total hypocrite, gets in all sorts of crap herself then blames other people when they make mistakes and has to be one of the most insincere, patronising girls I have ever met.
I don't know when Beany got so ignorant. Not feeling the need to persistently shove yourself down the throats of everybody around you does not under circumstances mean you have less of a personality.

The ignorance of some people really pisses me off.

Track: I Think I'm Paranoid - Garbage

I'm... getting worried about my mum. Well "getting" is kind of a stupid way to put it, I've been worried for ages I just haven't wanted to.. express it. In a lot of ways it feels like it's a stupid thing to because it's not like there's anything anyone can do about anyway.

I guess... lately it's beginning to feel like one parent isn't enough. My mum needs help, she really does and there just isn't any. I mean, I do what I can, I honestly do but when I get too involved that just makes her more stressed because she thinks I shouldn't be helping or something. I don't know. She just works for peanuts - a lot of the work she does is actually for nothing, she doesn't know how to say no to people - she spends hours and hours on these jobs for money that covers practically nothing. She is so many different people's "go to guy".. they think they can just ask her anything because she'sgood old Alexa and she'll do it.. and she does because she scared that if she doesn't they won't send any actual PAID WORK her way anymore and if that work stops.. well, we're screwed basically.
She's been taking on more stuff than she usually would recently because she's trying to keep us covered for later in the year. In May, John turns 19 which means he looses all of his tax credit which is, needless to say, the majority of our income. So far she's managed to keep u ok until like September but... part of me doesn't even see the point. No one is here to help us and the money's going to run out eventually anyway. What's the point in making herself ill for it? Because that's what's happening. She's awake all night worrying about all the work that she hasn't done and when she FINALLY gets FIVE MINUTES to relax at the end of the day she sits there worrying about what she feels she should be doing. It ISN'T WORTH IT. Whatever money, it surely isn't worth making yourself sick? Right?

She's got this thing again... it shows that stress is getting really bad. It happened when I was 10... during on of the depression things. She gets really short of breath, it isn't a panick attack it's something else... something it would take counselling or whatever to get rid of and OF COURSE she doesn't have time for that. Even after everything erupted before she didn't bother it very long. She thinks people that do that stuff need to get a life and stop obsessing about themseleves... lol. She always called it a fat lady sitting on her chest. I don't know if that's because I was 10 or if she just couldn't think of any other way of describing it. So over a period of time it got worse and worse... Hugh dropped her off utside of A&E a couple of times but she never went in until one evening it got really bad and she phoned NHS direct and they sent an ambulance out and attached all these weird thing to her chest and everything. I remember it really clearly 'cause it wasn't long after our neighbor died in the bath and when they took her out she was saying sorry to Vi, his wife... she's dead now too... because all the ambulances and stuff were so soon after all the ambulances and stuff had come for Alec...
I don't remember much between then and time that I decided there was no way on this Earth that I was leaving my mum in the hospital on her own and the time that Hugh dragged me out of the hospital and told me that the whole thing was my fault because I got upset a lot and made my mum get stressed. I was 10. Twat. And I guess... I guess he was partially right but there was so much going on with HIM back then I know that in actual fact the majority of it was his fault because he was supposed to be there like he said he was going to be but instead he made my mum scared and insecure and made her think he was going to leave all the time. I'd like to say that too him one day. I never will though.
That all happened the day before Easter. I remember 'cause it was Easter (obviously) and I did a puppet show for her that I thought might cheer her up (it didn't).

Bearing in mind that no one in this house listen to a word I say.... what do I do?

Thing is... in a couple of months I am seeing everyone that gives her all this work and I could talk to them. They're nice people, despite the amount of advantage they have taken recently.

I can't see that being something I'm thanked for though.

I don't know what to do or who to talk to because everyone apart from Beany have dad's and people that sort this stuff out for them and when Itried to tell Beany all she did was tell me off for wanting to rely on a man. She's a feminist.

I want someone to tell me what to do. I want someone to come and sort it out. I'm getting really scared now. Hugh doesn't even work half the time anymore because no one is building any houses that need to be designed but he still isn't helping. I asked mum why she didn't ask him for help but she didn't answer. He could even do stupid things like fix the broken stuff in the house and that would make her feel better. Except he won't. Because he's a self centered, evil prick.

I keep doing this weird thing where I nearly cry, like my eyes fill up and everything and then I don't. It comes in waves. It's odd.

I don't know how much sense that made. Anyone who got to this point deserves a medal.

or maybe you don't. Since people are supposed to do nice stuff like liste to people rather than yell at them because they don't have good enough feministic morals or whatever. God knows.

She isn't a feminst anyway. You should see how goo-ey she goes around the guy she likes. It's pathetic. I'll have to remind Rose to hit me if I ever get like that.

Adios.

Track: Be The One - The Ting Tings

Another typically boring day to be honest. I don't really know what to write about it other than the fact I didn't acheive some things that I wanted to. I went to the food tech room (because there are computers in there you can used without being yelled at) to try and get some child d coursework done. No such luck. I can't do this last part, it's hard and I don't completely understand what I'm supposed to do. My teacher was there but I refuse to ask her because I hate her. She probably wouldn't even help me anyway.

I don't even need help. I'll work it out somewhere when I'm on my own.

I hate asking people for help at school. I don't like giving people the oppertunity to make me feel like an idiot. Plus I can usually work it out on my own eventually. Using today a an example again actually. In maths I got stuck (Quadratic Equations. Urgh) and although it did take me the majority of the lesson I worked out the question in the end AND got it right. . I do NOT need the help of a snotty maths teacher who will make feel stupid I am PERFECTLY CAPABLE (hear that Miss? (well no you don't but.. Whatever)) of figuring these things out on my own.

I have neck pain I have no idea how I could have slept as uncomfortabley as I woke up this morning..

Track: Gone In The Morning - Newton Faulkner

I know that seems like a bit of a weird thing to say, me being... well... me. But this guy is ridiculous.

http://news.uk.msn.com/odd-news/article.aspx?cp-documentid=13925337

In other news I went to the library today and got a few books out about Sociology and Psychology because they are both subjects I would like to take at A-level but don't acually know that much about. I really want to make an informed decision on this.

I HATE RAIN

Track: What's My Age Again - Blink 182

I just pissed someone off.

I didn't mean to. I just honestly don't know how to help her.

She's always sad, and I sit and listen to her whenever she talks to me, because I want to. She talks about wanting help with her problems and since she started college she has this massive support system and it still isn't enough for her. I mean... I'm trying, I really am but help.. it's a two way thing. Her tutor at college has been trying all these different things, found out loads of information, given the girl her msn so she an mail her whenever but this girl... she just rejects all of it and then gets angry and saying we're not being there for her when... she won't help herself.

This has been going nearly two years now.

What I said wasn't even that bad, I just commented on the fact that help is kind of a two way street and now she's blocked me on msn. So god knows when I'll hear from her again.

She just... I know that she is sad, and I know that she has all these problems but she is SUCH an attention seeker. And I feel awful saying that but it's true. When I get upset, I come on here, or write in one of my notebooks because I don't want to constant "are you ok?" from my friends that I have like... direct conversations with you know? Whenever there's something major going on for her she puts it in her msn name.. says everyone she knows is failing her etc etc and... she has this other problem which she acts as though is this big private problem but puts in her msn name how long it has been since she last did it... argh it pisses me off. And then when I try and change the subject and talk about something else for a bit.. stupid stuff that is going on in my life.. not problems or anything just.. you know.. stupid stuff that I've done, hot guys.. general girl conversation and THEN she gets annoyed with me and makes a comment about how much I'm talking about myself and I just.. ARGH. I cannot do anything right with this girl and now she's made ME feel guilty.

I have held my tounge for 2 YEARS. I think I deserve some credit but all I get told is that I'm failing her and I don't come online enough and ARGH.

It's just her being her I KNOW but I just can't... she can't expect everyone else to do everything for her.

Now I'm worried about how long it's gunna be before she deems me worth speaking to again.

No ones made me feel like this for a while. I HATE that I give people the power to make me feel like this. I DID NOTHING WRONG.

Bitch.

Now I even feel bad for saying that.

I know I'm that way on here, but the reason for that is so that I'm not like it with my friends 'cause I don't want to be a drag.

Track: It's All Your Fault - Pink

SNOW DAY

... Or actually not, in my case. My school has closed because the whole of the South Hams and Exeter is totally covered, some people have been stuck in their cars all night apparently but where I live... nothing. It keeps snowing but then it rains immediately after so the snow gets washed away. I don't mind though, I had my fun on Tuesday. Tuesday was so awesome, me and my mum went on a walk when John went to college and it was fun. It was really nice of her as well 'cause she has WAY too much work at the moment. I shouldn't have let her really but Barney did need to go out so.... I'm not going to feel bad.

We went up to the shop this morning to get emergency breakfast supplies and I found some extra money in my purse so we got out a dvd. Everyone got a bit eggy with me at that point because I took forever choosing. I don't think it was a bad thing though, because the last couple of films I've paid to see have been terrible (Twilight, Bridge to Terabithia. Did I ever do a post about just how CRAP Twilight was?) So I THINK it was worth making John wait for ages because 27 Dresses turned out to be really really good. John thinks I was just trying to be annoying though. There's no telling some people.

Although he did admitt he thought the film was good too.

Paper Towns has helped me so much. For the last couple of days me and Beany have actually been nice to eachother. Although that may have been more to do with the fact that I was only at school 2 days this week. I hope it isn't. I hope I can sort things. She is different now, who she is now is who she is and even though that's annoying sometimes I can't expect her to be who she was 'cause that isn't who she is anymore.

(That made sense to me).

I still need to stick that quote on my door though.

HA! I'm NOT weird. Beany thinks Sasuke is hot too.

Track: Rainbows In the Dark - Tilly and the Wall

I've decided that I am going to learn to draw this guy.

I'm not really a drawer to be honest, I used to be but I was never that good so I got annoyed at it. However, I can draw something with pratise and Sasuke is someone I have incentive to draw, him being the only cartoon character (other than Li from Cardcaptor Sakura) that I have a crush on.

I'm too weird sometimes, I swear.

Track: As Is - Ani DiFranco

You know how when you send someone a message afterwards it comes up with bloggers who share your interests?

The blogger who shares my interests is...

Myself.

...

You don't say.

Track: Teenage Dirtbag - Wheatus

I finished a really good book yesterday. It's called Paper Towns and is by John Green. It's amazing for so many different reasons. I love it so much and it's made me re-think some of the friendships that I have.

I'm going to type up this bit and stick it on my door. The cuboard door mood board thing is expanding!

"Can we called Ben then?"
"No. Ben's an asshole."
Radar looked at me sideways. "Of course he is. You know your problem, Quentin? You keep expecting people not to be themselves. I mean, I could hate you for being massively unpunctual and for never being interested in anything other than Margo Roth Spiegelman, and for, like, never asking me about how it's going with my girlfriend - but I don't give a shit, man, because you're you. My parents have a shit ton of black Santas, but that's okay. They're them. I'm too obsessed with a reference Web site to answer my phone sometimes when my friends call, or my girlfriend. That's okay, too. That's me. You like me anyway. And I like you. You're funny, and you're smart, and you may show up late, but you always show up eventually."
"Thanks."
"Yeah, well, I wasn't complimenting you. Just saying: stop thinking Ben should be you, and he needs to stop thinking you should be him, and y'all just chill the hell out."
"All right," I said finally, and called Ben.

This is making me re-think my whole friendship with Beany.

I'm such an idiot.

Track: Black Santas - Lauren Fairweather

So I'm at home again today. Not because of the snow today though, that's gone now. I'm "ill". I know this is bad time for me to be doing this and stuff but it's not as if I'm sat around doing nothing. I FINALLY got my "A Cream Cracker Under the Settee" essay done and I have to say I am extremely proud of it. It's the longest one I've written at 4 pages and I just... I think it's good. I don't care if I'm being up myself. I feel awful today (obviously 'cause I'm not at school. I have to feel seriously bad for my mum to let me stay home) and being able to be proud of my essay has made me feel better. It is such a weight off my mind to have it finished. Not that it'll probably get marked for ages.

I realised something today. My English teacher isn't nearly as crap as I have thought she is. Well, I mean, she still can't teach and could probably make Noughts And Crosses boring but somehow, in the year and a bit I've spent with her.... she's taught me how to write essays. I can't recall when this happened. I don't remember have any essay writing lessons, and when she is explaining them I stop listening most of the time (It's not on purpose, I just have more interesting things to think about. Plus my English room is always really warm. It makes you kind of sleepy) but... somehow... my essays have got good. Even my mum says so. I want to go through and re-write all of them now. I know I couldn't actually be bothered to do it. But still, I wish I could. I want them to be good, I want to do well in English, because, despite the whole falling asleep in most classes thing... I like it. I'm planning on carrying it on at A-level (hopefully with a better teacher). I like feeling like I've done something well. I don't get that much. It's nice.

NOW all I have to do is add stuff the monologue that I wrote and then I'm set and completed coursework-wise. I really don't think my monologue was that dodgey, but she's written "oo-er" in big letters across it. She didn't say she hated it, she just thinks it's weird. And that I'm weird. But that may have been because I told her I would jump off a bridge if she made me perform it to the class. She knew I was joking though. At least, I think she did.

She's written some suggestions as to what I should add but I don't know how to do it. I don't feel like I felt when I wrote it. Like, I can't get back into it. It's annoying. Also she's written something about it being a bit tricky that my character is on stop of a high ledge which is ridiculous because the fact that she is going to jump off a high ledge IS THE WHOLE POINT on the monologue.

Awww that was really sweet. At the moment for one of my PE sessions instead of doing football or whatever there's a small group of us doing running, we're training to do the Race For Life and the teacher that does it with us has sent me a little praise card thing saying I'm doing really well in it. Awww. I love the PE teacher that runs with us 'cause like... she's really into it, you know? You see her outside of school going for a run and she goes everywhere on her bike and she actually looks as though she exercises which is more than can be said for the rest of them. You feel more inclined to try in PE when it's with someone who actually loves what they're doing. Awww that was really sweet of her.

Track: Loose Lips - Kimya Dawson

SNOW

SNOW

SNOW

SNOW

IS SO AWESOME

It started snowing a bit in English and everyone got excited apart from me because I am a kill joy 'cause I thought it was going to stop straight away again anyway and then it did BUT THEN towards the end of maths it started snowing loads and then when we walked back it was snowing loads and it was SO DAMN FUN

Way to fun for sentences, if you were wondering

Seriously, everyone was on a total snow high, it was amazing. It wasn't even that cold, 'cayse it had heated up just before it started it was just beautiful and kind of exactly what everyone needed you know? It was kind of funny 'cause when my mum arrived to pick me up she was saying how she could hear all the primary school kids screaming and getting excited and THAT'S EXACTLY WHAT WE WERE DOING

Then I got home and mum and John got all worried then we went out 'cause we had to get some stuff then we came home and took Barney for a walk

I took photos they are crap but they are snow so that makes it all okay

Turn your head sideways

There is only one negative point to all of this in that I was supposed to go to poerty live tomorrow and I don't know whether or not I'm going to be able to get out of my village

And there's the whole what if I don't go but everybody else does thing

Hmm...

On the other hand, I could really do with a day off. (OMG a full stop!) 'Cause I really need to do some revision for everything.

Hmm...

It is so ridiculous that I'm getting worried

Anyway

Now read it again with the song and it might make more sense.

Or just watch the video 'cause it rocks

Track: I Like Giants - Kimya Dawson