I have had a crappy day thanks to an irritating thing that happened to me this morning. I've felt kind of crappy since Meg Cabot anyway but still *frown* what did I do to deserve to be miserable? Well, there w as the whole My Day Was Better Than Yours thing but surely that doesn't mean I deserve a whole week of total miserable-ness. I don't think it does.
So. This morning. It started kind of weirdly anyway because John was being all I'm Taking The Bus To College On My Own because it's part of his course for this year and I was kind of wound up and worried about that 'cause it's weird. Then things got stranger when I arrived at school on time. Not only on time but early! I hate getting there early, everyone is stood upstairs in their little groups and not only is it difficult seeing someone you know but it's kind of hard not to walk into snoggers/ stand on people. From when I've been early before I pretty much know it's just Beanie there talking to people I don't really know that well, so I headed over to where she had been the last time I got there before reg. As normal she was surrounded by the so called "Cool nerds". She did mock shock the OMG Your Here!? thing so I did the Wow I Know It's Amazing First Time I've Managed This Week and then when I turned around the stupid nerds where giving each other and look and rolling eyes thing! Not like messing around either. It was proper death stares I Really Hate You Why Did You Come Over Here And Ruin My Morning You Bitch kind of looks.
What have I ever done to them?
Really. There was an awkward silence after I came and everything. I've kind of noticed stuff like this before but I've always ignored it and told myself I was being paranoid.
Well today confirmed it.
The nerds (no longer the "cool" nerds to me. They are crap. The Crap Nerds) hate me. Why why why? I've never done anything to them. I thought they were kind of weird anyway because they were really nice to me and Rose through DofE and we must have talked to them until about 3am but then as soon as we got back to school they started to blank us again (except Beanie). Why do they hate me? Why do they like Beanie and hate me? Really, I don't think I even speak that much in the mornings so I don't know what I could have said to make them hate me. And they showed no signs of hating me at DofE. One guy in partucular (the eye rolling instigator, in fact) really didn't seem to hate me on DofE. Idiots. Stupid. Crap.Why do they hate me but like Beanie? Beanie isn't even very nice since she started her whole jackel and hyde thing again.
Why do I care?
I hate them. How dare they make me feel even more like crap than I already did.
Assholes. 
alecweston
Pro 
. DofE is Duke Of Edinburough. The award thing I'm doing. Part of it is to go on walks and camp and stuff. I'm not really an out door-sey kind of person but I really really enjoyed myself.
For what it's worth, here's my take on it:
They're a pack of goody-goodies. They always get to school super on time. They are know-alls and obey all the rules and try to be all the same.
You are different, non-conforming, special - and you will always stick out from the pack. (at the DofE, I have forgotten what it stands for again, lol, they probably were prepared to let heir hair down more whatever) Be yourself. Sometimes, at school, that can feel hellish, but in the end it makes it much easier to find people who really appreciate you - and you will.
Ignore all this if you think it's a load of crap.
Btw, have you read Hideous, Kinky? I mentioned it a post the other day, and thought you would probably really enjoy it.