First week: Over.
Not bad as first weeks go. Probably could have been better. Probably could have been worse.
However. I think I have had an epiphany.
Facts: I am a worrier. I make myself crap at things. I decide that I will be crap at something and then give up and let the worrying have me. This is not a good approach to life, I have discovered.
My worrying doesn’t make me work harder. It makes me give up.
But the thing is, in the last few months, 2 of my friend’s have irritated me very much. They pretty much believe that I am stupid. And I don’t think, really, that I am. I think that I could be clever. I didn’t fail my science. So there.
Anyway. The point. My new incentive to make myself work at home and be amazing and science and Spanish is this: Piss off Beanie. She gets angry when people are better than her, and her and Jemma enjoy making me feel like I am stupid. Well, I think that’s what it is. So. From now on I am lightening girl who knows everything and is better at Spanish than Beanie girl rather than “Er… because it’s stopped?” girl.
Annoyingly as I was deciding I was going to do this my Spanish teacher took in all my books so I have nothing to revise from but I think I know a couple of good sites.
Work to do.
