I'm in a strange mood. Stuck somewhere between major depression and a potential amazing mood. It's weird to think that this time next year I will have finished school. It's a bit depressing to think that this time in two weeks I will have failed half of my science GCSE. I always thought that there was loads of time before I really had to think about anything. Like, when I started year 7 and everyone was saying how quickly it goes I just thought Yeah Whatever You Say... and for the first 2 years, due to the Robyn induced misery, I believed in that. But since she left and I started to make friends and enjoy myself... it's suddenly 4 weeks until I start my work experience.
And that would be ok, all of that. I'm even mostly over the Robyn stuff now, I made friends with the most comtrolling bitch I could possibly have found, I'm done with that now and I have to accept that and move on rather than keeping up with a completely pointless hate. She's gone. Moved away. Best thing that could happen because it meant I could move on too. As I was saying.. 1 year left of school. That'd be great and everything but.. where am I going? I don't know what I want to do, I'm not even close to having a clue and.. well, it makes everything seem kind of pointless. It's hard to motivate myself to revise when I'm not aiming for anything. I'm pointlessly struggling with this stupid, frustrating science and for what? Lol, sorry. Everyone should have my problems right? 
That didn't last long. Hugh's here 'cause his mum gave him presents to give John. I'm still ignoring Hugh, and, to annoy him even more I'm going to watch Big Brother tonight. I'm not gunna stop being a bitch this time. He deserves it. In a way it'll just be showing him how he is, he's a much bigger baby than me. "Oh poor me I've lost all control over my girlfriend because she got a back bone." 
Seriously though, I used to think my mum was pathetic. Not anymore. And I'm proud of her 
I still hate him for making her worse though. Taking advantage of someone when they aren't exactly well is sick, I see that now and it's unforgivable. Meldodramatic? Maybe.
I just worked out what my mood is:
Bitch
Heh heh..
