Still feeling fairly crap. Hugh didn't come around again last night though, which is a bonus. We watched Gross Pointe Blank. I love that film. You should watch it 'cause it's amazing. I would describe it but I'm bad at doing that kind of thing without actually spoiling the whole film.
I have something to focus on now, it's John's 18th on Friday. I seriuosly can't believe that, partly because mentally, he's probably still 12ish, that's what me and mum decided anyway. And he's still so small. We were looks-wise with all different kinds of autism there's the 2 extremes, they're either tiny and really really skinny or really big boned and tall. John is teeny. He's so skinny and still has size 6 feet. xD. So I'm trying to make this birthday good for him, and that included guilt tripping my dad. Mum's been bugging me a bit with I Can't Belive Your Dad Isn't Going To Do Anything For John's 18th thing and when we asked him to come out with us on Friday he said he'd 'check with Mandy' (he couldn't really be any more under the thumb). After he left I decided to do something I've never tried before, I sent him this really whiney text saying he had to come because it would make it so much more special etc etc etc. It's apparently worked because now he said he should be able to come but with confirm today or tomorrow. Ha ha. I kind of hate the fact I have to guilt trip my dad into coming to his son's 18th.. 
. Probablyy best not to think about that too much though.
Anyway, so, my present. I've made John a cd out of all the songs he's always singing around the house.
I've been messing around with the order for a while but now I've settled with this:
1. Bowling For Soup - Punk Rock 101
2. Red Hot Chili Peppers - Give It Away
3. Foo Fighters - All My Life
4. Sum 41 - In Too Deep
5. Bowling For Soup - 1985
6. Maroon 5 - This Love
7. David Bowie - Life On Mars?
8. DC Talk - Jesus Freak
9. Fall Out Boy - This Aint A Scene, It's An Arms Race
10. Linkin Park - In The End
11. My Chemical Romance - Welcome To The Black Parade
12. Greenday - Basket Case
13. Nirvana - Smells Like Teen Spirit
14. Wheatus - Teenage Dirtbag
15. Nickleback - How You Remind Me
16. My Chemical Romance - I'm Not Okay (I Promise)
I hope he likes it. I'm also gunna make him a Gene Hunt card or something. 
It's kind of funny that we're taking him to the zoo for his 18th. The zoo near us recently got crocadiles and he's been wanting to see them for a while. We're going to see who's teeth and scarier, the crocodiles, or John's with his new braces. Lol.
I really need to start being more organised though, his birthday's on Friday and I'm only just sorting myself out. 
