Hey. So it's kind of been a while again. There isn't any explaination other than the fact that everything I write these days bugs me so much I instantly have to delete it. So whether or not this will get published is yet to be seen.
I did the whole church thing again today, it was pretty much the same as last time, me making the same, awkward attempts at conversation with Abbie and sitting there the whole time feeling overwhelmingly shy. Whether or not I'll ever actually make a proper friendship with someone there I don't know, it's hard, because it's only once and week and I'm not bringing someone with me, like Rose or Jemma, to make it less scary. John's there, but he doesn't really help. So much for me standing on my own two feet in anything. Whenever it's just me I seem to dissapear and get ignored.
It's pretty depressing really :)).
I still want to keep going though, because some of the things that were said did make me think.

In other news, I've finished the walking section of my DofE! We had our assessed walk yesterday and Friday and he survived again and didn't get lost once :). And Imy managed to keep her clothes on this time. I ended up watching this really stupid game a dares though, I guess Beanie and Carrie think they're somehow 'kewl' after Friday night but I think they've embarassed themselves more to be honest. They're now Desperate Nerds. I figured that after I heard something behind me about Isn't This A Bit Far For Them?. That was after Beanie kissed Carrie. Pretty funny but something they're definitely going to be embarased about on Monday :b. And I also hate Beanie now (lol) because she decided to yell something about me and masturbation which obviously made random people (i.e most of the campsite) turn around and stare at me.
:| :| :|. Yes this is one of my best friends who knows me and also knows how much I hate attention. Lol. :roll:. And after that masturbation started coming into the conversation every 5 minutes.
Literally.
Got to talk to Lorri and his friends again though, which was kewl.

So.. that's me. I now have to try and do a media essay I thought would be easy, so have left myself 4 days to do.. but just discovered is really, really difficult. So I'm going to panic for a while and properly freak out to my mum when she gets back.

:roll:

xx