Okay, so as I've said (and demonstrated) a lot of times I'm not really that great at explaining things. I've been thinking about Hugh and how things have shifted again a lot today and I thought I'd try and describe exactly what it's like.
Hugh has lots of different personalities, at the moment he's like this:
So this is Hugh now. It's scary but not extremely so. There's the massive fake smile and everything is accentuated. Like if you pretend that you're being funny and happy all the tension is going to go away. All laughter from Hugh, like with a clown, is fake. This is a bit weird but not completely disturbing.
But then, a switch flips
And it just goes to being scary and arguing. Or just giving looks about everything you do, staring at whatever you do with That Look until you have to ask him what it is that you're doing wrong. Talking down to you and critisising everything. You feel that you can't even walk into a room. But then this clown, is also pissed off because he's lost most of his control. He isn't as needed anymore, he isn't allowed everything that he wants anymore and people are sticking up to him.
And this scary clown HATES it.
Which is why scary clown felt the need to make Christmas miserable and tension filled and unhappy. And now has gone back to being clown number one. It's weird. You don't know which one is worse, because when someone's being completely miserable it makes you angry, but when they're being too fake happy it puts you on edge. Because when someone's like that.. honestly, how long is it before they snap? Also, when someone's being fake happy you start believing it and then it's even more confusing when they suddenly snap back and go all scary again.
Hopefully that helped me make sense.
Although I have a feeling it might be more confusing than ever.
xxx
