I don't get Hugh. He has SO much in his life, he has my mum who sticks around despite the way he treats her, she does way more work than he pays her for and cooks him meals. She's put up with so much from him and he can't even appreciate one thing that she does.
He knows for a fact that my dad isn't.. isn't always how he should be. He knew stuff about him when I was still young enough to not know or understand and then he could have chosen to become some sort of father figure... he didn't. He doesn't want us around, has SAID on several occaisions that he doesn't want us around and that just makes me feel uncomfortable. This is MY home, not his! And yet I'm the one feeling bad when he sits down stairs being way to happy and completely fake because he wants to pretend that he hasn't done anything wrong and he didn't ruin Christmas and that there's some point in him actually being here.
I've decided that I'm going to start nagging him. He's living in the house next door to his while he renovates his (something that's been going on a few years now) and the fact is that his house isn't going to be finished for a long time, and his parents will let him do what he wants with the house he's renting but he won't make it anything like a home. His stuff is still all in boxes when he must have been living there a year... he doesn't come round here in the week much anymore because mum won't let him stay the night now so I think he should get a tv. He has a tv.. just no liscence and he can afford it he just doesn't want to.. make anything like home. Even though home won't be home because he's getting rid of his house as soon as he's finished it. Today, when I asked him he told me that he was planning to get the tv liscence at the end of the month (2 months ago) so I'm gunna nag him all this week. Maybe if he's got something at home to stop him working all the time he'll appreciate being home and won't want to go on holiday all the time then be nicer to mum then they'll be happier then it won't all feel like this.
Not that he'll listen to me.
People don't.
Unless of course, I get really, really, really annoying.
