Archive - Angst? Me? Never.

So today has been ok so far. I've got all my wrapping up done and I'm pretty happy with what I've got for people.
Mum still isn't ok though, I think she was hoping that Hugh was going to at least come over and spend the day with us today, but instead he says that he can't have any fun if he's here and not on holiday, so he's at home.. working I guess. I just keep telling mum that it's actually more relaxed when he isn't here.. and she agrees.. and she doesn't seem really unhappy, so hopefully she is honestly ok and not just pretending. I think that the idea of Christmas without Hugh's parents is what's cheering her up. It'll be nice, I think.
My dad's coming round in the morning with my gran, which should be good because mum hasn't seen dad's mum for a year.. not since last Christmas actually. And I guess seeing dad will be ok.. it'll make John happy and Mandy never comes with him, which is always a plus. And he was actually really nice the other week.. he says that he always really looks forward to coming to see us. And he tends to show up, which is always good :roll: . So hopefully tomorow will be ok.
But argh, I have to go to church again today, I don't want to because I think I might have to try and make awkward conversation with people this time. Which I hate and probably won't be able to think of any believable excuse to get out of.
Damnit.
Plus the whole place just makes me feel weird. It's another one of those places where everyone is so completely together.. and I'm just not part of that. I'm not anywhere :-/ .
Anyway