So, I survived the jab. I actually wasn't that bad at the time but earlier I wasn't feeling well... and now my arm just aches lol. It wasn't ok for some people though, a few people fainted and Ime had to go home 'cause she felt really ill, she looked terrible when she went home, I hope she's ok 
. I feel bad about it though, after we had the injection, Rose cried because she has this massive phobia of needles and everything, and she'd got really scared and I guess she just kind of went all Nyeahh.. 
. And I feel bad 'cause I just kind of freaked. I'm really bad at dealing with people when they cry, I don't know why, I just freeze up completely. Along with the fact that I can't hug people... I'm just kinda useless really. Because I don't know what to that will help, I'm bad at helping people when they're really like.. distressed all together. When things get really emotional I freak. I don't know why. I've got worse about it in the last couple of years, I can't really hug people without feeling all.. I don't know :S. It's hard to explain. But Beanie's always going about the fact that I can't hug which makes me hug me all the time and then go on about my hugs having no emotion and then saying I just don't wanna hug her.. it just makes me feel uncomfortable and bad. I can't help it. I'm just weird. And a really crap friend. I couldn't even help my best friend when she was crying 
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We had to take bunny to the vet today, 'cause he's been ill the last few days aswell, he doesn't seem ill, but he won't eat anything and he's lost a bit of weight in the last couple of months, so we have some stuff to attempt to squirt into his mouth with a syringe thing. Also Smokey is gunna have to go back to the vets soon , the lump is big and it's starting to affect him, and when that starts they said we had to take him back... I don't want to. Argh. Why does it all have to be all at once? 
Arghhh, I'm so worried about mum going to Farnam on Thursday. My dad is being useful for once and he said that he'd pick me up from school and stay for a bit to make sure John was ok and everything... but I'm scared he won't show up and that I'll be stuck in Totness with no way of getting home. And that would be bad because she probably won't get back till 10ish and John can't be on his own for that long, he needs to eat so he can have his tablet and go to bed. I'm just worried about her driving up there aswell. Normally when she has to do long drives I'm there aswell, she panicks easily when she's driving and I'm really, really worried about her getting up there, because I won't be there to calm her down. None of this helped by the fact that my phone seems to have died. :@. Technology is so annoying. One time I'm actually really going to need it and it's not working. I hate being worried all the time. I'm gunna be freaking in the evening aswell. I hope she doesn't get kept back and the traffics really bad and stuff because I don't want to be up for ages 'cause I'm knackered and I don't want to be on my own in charge with John for ages either. And it's all scary when he'll have gone to bed, 'cause mum's taking Barney away with her.. so I won't have him to keep me company.
Ohh .
I've made myself sad now, aswell, 'cause when I put Smokey away I had this kind of tradition thingy of going and checking both the cages.. and I did his and then got up to go and do Nugget's .
Sorry. Really, really moany post but I've felt like moaning all day, but Kailee was really happy which is good so I didn't.
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