Angst? Me? Never.

OMG THEY ARE AMAZING. I mean.. i knew that anyway. But they have cheered me up sooooooooooo much tonight. I feel.. really good now. That and I'm going to be watching tv with my mum for a while in a bit. I don't think anyone can really understand.. it's just... she's busy a lot and i kinda feel like.. I'm just something that gets in the way a lot, and then when we get a chance to be just us for a while it;s really nice. And it's stupid.. but just knowing that is making me feel better. it;s even taking me off the 33/98 in the mock SAT... only almost tho, and i haven't told her about that yet =/
oh well.. i know that she won't be mad at me, but I don't really wanna tell her because it'll give her something else to worry about. But then.. I can't not really, hmmmm....

Today.. have felt crap but haven't really had the time to think about it. Karly didn't get on the amber route, and she's been really upset. I feel really bad for her. It isn't fair, she was SO enthusiastic about it, and after the day that she had there she was realy really happy. but... after a little while she seemed to cheer up a bit, which was kewl.
But.. this morning =/
I'm having one of those days where you really don't want to leave the house, and whatever you do it doesn't go away, and you just want to stay in. I felt like it last night aswell, and i told mum how much i didn't want to go in today. And she looked like she was going to think about it. But John has a cough or something so he's here. She made me cry this morning.. She said John was staying at home, so i thought ok.. fair enough, but he keeps being mean whenever I'm in the same area as him. I think all that he said to me yesterday was "shut up". So I just asked her to ask him to not be mean. And she stood up for him tones and then did this sighing at me thing. It was like.. shut up, i don't care. And I got really upset about it. Which I know was dumb.. but it made me feel worse. Nothing... apart from that really happened today. Well.. ok, something did actually. Robyn's made Ime hate me. She was really wierd with me today, and I know that I'm not being paranoid. She's never like that. I guess i knew that she would be really.. did i? ARGH! It isn't fair. I didn't do anything wrong, Robyn took advantage of the fact that I trusted her, and there are about a zillion other things, but no one cares cuz it's robyn, i'm just Lydia..