Yep. it's true. I have no life.

I just.. was thinking. Well.. I was thinking and then someone said the thing I was thinking about. Apprently hugging is like.. a vital part of a friendship. Me and Rose never hug =/
I'm not a hug person. Well.. I dunno. I've done quite a lot of hugging of my mum, cause she's upset a lot. Well, i used to hug her anyway. Most of the time when she is sad now she has a go at me. Hmmm.. I don't know if I'm a huggy person. I don't think I've ever been friends with a "huggy" person. So I guess I don't know really. I wonder.. Maybe that's why I don't really have many friends. Cause I don't hug people and it seems like I'm a brick. I dunno. Gemma said that she noticed I didn't really hug people. I dunno. I think.. actually. I don't.
I know =/
i'm not really normal. Cause everyone else seems.. different. Maybe. I want to go and be with someone now. Not in that way, just go and have some fun and watch a film or something. But no one has time. And plus it's 9:30 and all the people I know are in Totnes. Well.. I do know people here but I don't really know if they are friends. They are like.. people that I have tuns of fun with when I see them, but if we ever had a proper conversation I don't know if anyone would know what to say. Hmm.. I think.. I think I'm annoying. Because sometimes I am in a good mood. it just.. I dunno, when it gets to the evening I sorta... well, I've sat on my own for ages and I always feel a bit crap. Never use to tho.. I guess that was because being online used to be amazing. But it isn't so much at the moment. Loads od stuff is going wrong and I think I'm only coming on for the sake of it. And to get away.. The on time I came downstairs and tried to have a conversation John told me to shut up anyway. ARGH.