Angst? Me? Never.

Yep. it's true. I have no life.

I just.. was thinking. Well.. I was thinking and then someone said the thing I was thinking about. Apprently hugging is like.. a vital part of a friendship. Me and Rose never hug =/
I'm not a hug person. Well.. I dunno. I've done quite a lot of hugging of my mum, cause she's upset a lot. Well, i used to hug her anyway. Most of the time when she is sad now she has a go at me. Hmmm.. I don't know if I'm a huggy person. I don't think I've ever been friends with a "huggy" person. So I guess I don't know really. I wonder.. Maybe that's why I don't really have many friends. Cause I don't hug people and it seems like I'm a brick. I dunno. Gemma said that she noticed I didn't really hug people. I dunno. I think.. actually. I don't.
I know =/
i'm not really normal. Cause everyone else seems.. different. Maybe. I want to go and be with someone now. Not in that way, just go and have some fun and watch a film or something. But no one has time. And plus it's 9:30 and all the people I know are in Totnes. Well.. I do know people here but I don't really know if they are friends. They are like.. people that I have tuns of fun with when I see them, but if we ever had a proper conversation I don't know if anyone would know what to say. Hmm.. I think.. I think I'm annoying. Because sometimes I am in a good mood. it just.. I dunno, when it gets to the evening I sorta... well, I've sat on my own for ages and I always feel a bit crap. Never use to tho.. I guess that was because being online used to be amazing. But it isn't so much at the moment. Loads od stuff is going wrong and I think I'm only coming on for the sake of it. And to get away.. The on time I came downstairs and tried to have a conversation John told me to shut up anyway. ARGH.

I think that I need to learn how to make a good mood stay. Cause.. I was fine until about 10 minutes ago. I don't really know what happened. Just the feeling that I hate came back, it's annoying. realy annoying =/

Today.. actually, from a craooy start in turned out to be pretty good. The reason that it started badly is me is me being a bitch again. Basically john didn't get up till about 5 mintues before we had to go to school. Which made us late. The thing is, this time last week i was in John's position and i got yelled at.. at lot. And it's john? nothing. And then he gets to go home from school because he is ill. right. yep, i'm bieng horrible and stuff.. it just doesn't seem that fair.. or maybe it does. ohhh i don't know.
Anywayyyy, Rose was away, which wasn't so great. But so was the guy that i like which is a good thing and a bad thing at the same time. Good, because it means that i don't have to watch him and the girl he likes (who is really nice.. foof) being all.. liking eachother. lol. And bad.. cuz i don't get to see him =P
And then after a while, the mad laughing bug developed. It's Scarlet's, she always makes me laugh anyway because she has to be one of the weirdest (but funnest) people I have ever met. And we were sat in a really good row. And so i got on (kind of) withg everyone. I guess the thing that really started us of was when Alister (takes hm self wayyyyy so sersiously) fell off his chair. Which got balme n me but i couldn't argue because i was laughing to much. YOu know, when your stomach starts killiong you kinda laughing? Well.. it had been building up for a while, but when the chair went over... hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahhahahaha. I guess it doesn't sound funny. But it really was. I also got to have a go at Stefan. Which is always fun because he never really gets what is going on. For some reaosn he really hates me (he was being mean to someone and i told him how dumb it was) and ever since then for some reason everything that I so annoys him. And he made a coment (which actually had nothing to do with what we were talking about, but apprently.. it did.) And so me and Scarlt got to say stuff to him for a while that he didnt understand.
And then lunch.. water fights, laughing at Beanie going mad cause her hair got wet, the make up reaaplying etc etc.
hehehehehheehehehehehehehe

yes, i am a bitch, but for once.. a happy one

XD