Angst? Me? Never.

ARGH. harriet is trying to get me to talk to Robyn without saying that they have been talking about me. I wonder if she realises get amazingly obvious what she is doing is. I'm guessing also that everything is my fault and i've over reacted etc. but the thing is.. it isdn't just now. And it;s because she makes me feel this crap and she isn't here. And I don't trust her. And basically all the stuff that I have said. I don't care if i'm being a drama queen or a bitch or w/e. mabye I want to be. I'm NOT making up with robyn, and if harriet goes on about it (which so far she isn't) I'll block her to.

yes, itroducing me, apprently a bitch now.

hmm..
I bet the fact that I don't talk to Robyn anymore will be around school tomorow. I wonder which of my friends will go all wierd with me. The thing is that i don't really want to tell them, because it sounds lame. But the whole thing.. it made me feel really really crappy anf Robyn knew that because she always made me talk about it. And she was always takingthe mick out of the situation and making me worry more and stuff. But to everyone else it is just going to be me over reaccting. And the fact that I'm ugly will mean that they won't believe any of it anyway. oh god, and what if Robym tells everyone??! Oh noooo. That would be worse than rfeally really bad. Because how am i going to explain that??? Oh noooooooo. I really eally hope that she doesn't. She wouldn't.. would she?

I hate mondays. i had a mock SAT english paper. I didn't have to do the whole thing because we didn't have the right amount of time. I think that he did want us to get past question 6 tho. I just can't do ittttt. I can't even remember the question. it's just.. argh, it was hard. And then in the end the guy next to me just told me to skip it and then time ran out anyway. Stupid horrible crappy make me feel bad feeling is still here. Very badly. Especially this evening. I don't really know why. I wonder if people can see my thru the window, cause i can see them. Sam is playing football will all the annoying people. Not very exciting. Actually, extreemly boring.
Just checked on john. I thought he wouldn't be looking but he is. I'm "in charge" cause mum has gone to the meeting thingy to stop the concrete walls getting built. I bet they will be anyway. Then she'll go and yell at a few people say we're moving fall out with me about a zillion times and then decide that they really don't look that bad after all (or get used to it, whicever comes first.) but, whenever she starts yelling for whatever reason I think i'm gunna walk away. I don't like it when people yell. It makes them and everyone around them feel bad and it makes everything akward. So.. point? there isn't one. And I don't want to listen, and she knows that, so after a while she'll get over the fact that I'm not listening. If it's such a problem she could try not looking out the window.
Done something else stupid in chat. Mike isn't talking to zoey cause of something i said, and now she is in there asking what, i hope this calms down before wednesday, else someone is going to kill me. And everyone is asking me about it. I'm being a lying cow. Argh, i hate myself. I just can't be bothered. I can't evemn keep everyone ok online anymore. Mainly cuz i don't like half of them, but i want to be on here. OH GODDDDDDDDDDD, why do i feel like this? have I done sometihng really really bad i don't knowwwww. if i have an dma i bitch, can someone tell me? Cuz I don't know what I have to do. i just.. i can't always keeps things that are getting to me to myself. And i decided to tell him cept i'm telling everyone it wasn't me and so is he. ARGH. I just.. oh nooo. I don't know what to do. Oh well, I decided i "had to go" cause i don't really want to listen anymore. I actually have h/w i'm meant to be doing. So.. i guess i better had..
bye.