Angst? Me? Never.

not true. mike, and he is lovelyyyyy. and i help him and he helps me, so it's really kewl.
It's just.. well, everyone else, i mean, i'm realy majorly dissapointed. sammie isn't being off with me anymore. i left the chat with soph in it. but it might mean that i don't get to see HP, cause she'll always be there. Actually, it'll mean i can't go anywhere.
=(
I HAVEN'T DONE AHYTHING WRONG.

ok..
she was talking about mike in a not nice way, so i snapped and said i didn't want to have this coversation with her, and then she said, ok, she would have it with someone else, so i said that she shouldn't be having it with anyone, because it wasn't fair. and then it went into me telling her how her always going on about no one caring (when i definatly did) and everything. and i said about how that made her feel.. as she carried on.

i'm trying to be happy.. it just seems.. as if no one wants me to be, i know i soiund like a bitch but i can't anymore.. i actually don't want to either =/

LOL, i'm so sad, look how many entrie in one night.
oh well, when there is no where else. there is my blog.
and like it or not that's how it is lol.

"Just say sorry to Soph...."

i have no friends.

Another person just prooved how they aren't my friend.
woop.
not.
argh, this is so unfairrrrr
i really wanna cry now.
but i can't, because someone might come up
so i'll just have to deep breathe lol.

It’s true. The stuff that happens here isn’t exactly book material tho, rather than interesting (haha) affairs and stuff we get concrete walls. Basically, in the park there are tennis courts and a group of people who look after the park want to build 2 solid concrete walls there for chavs to kick footballs at because they don’t want them doing it in the carpark. And their brilliant plan for doing it was not to tell anyone that they were doing it do that there weren’t any complaints. Well, hahahahaha, is all I can say. Cause basically, now my mum knows, plan over. The thing is, I don’t want you tio get the wrong impression, my mum isn’t one of those annoying nosey bossy people that you find in small villages. She just gets mad when they try and change things so it looks horrible. And seeing as I (selfish cow that I am) wont let us move, whenever this kinda stuff happens she makes huge fusses. And so she is gunna post to everyone in our road details of what they wanna do and get everyone to complain so they won’t get permission etc etc. I think it would be way more fun if they built it and then we went and got a massive hammer, but apparently that wouldn’t work.

People are no fun

That might even make me happy rofl.

Once when Hugh scared us by being nice he let us draw all over his walls because he was taking the paper off. For some reason I wrote song lyrics all over everywhere.

Oh god, had argument with someone else online and me and mike were talking about the annoying IM that she sent me. And apparently she knows I told mike everything that she said. This is so crap. Mike and HP are the only good thing about being online at the moment. I mean.. Sammie can be, but after yesterday I don’t always know. Sammie.. well, I know it seems lame to everyone reading this but.. well, I thought that she was my friend, but since stuff with soph she has been like.. the first person to have a go at me

This is soooooooooooo crap.

Everything good is going wrong

and, yeah, it's my fault
see what i mean?
i say this, but no one believes me, if i wasn't me and stupid and stuff. everything would be ok..

=/

I can't say I have enjoyed today. Because i got forced to do the crappy house netball at school. It's wierd, as soon as it started everyone turned into a complete bitch. There was SO MUCH BITCHING. I t was really unbelievable. Everyone was saying how Amber was trying to get on the team when she was a sub and it was her own fault she wasn't on because she didn't put her name down.. and apprently she's crap anyway. Foof. Then, end of first match, Amber is going on. We ask who is gunna give up their place, and I'm thinking "well, i kinda enjoyed myself, but then.." and then when i was gunna say she could have mine, they said that she should take Geena's place because Geena had done least. And even tho she wouldn't admitt it I could tell that Geena was sad. I mean, she went quiet and it took her ages to cheer up. And then when i said i didn't really wanna do it no one listened. So, i assumed that I was and went off to second lesson. And then after break Deeon is telling me that everyone is dropping out etc. So i felt bad and said i would do it. And then she said she thought it was a buit selfish of Geena to get in a mood. So i just pointed out to her how does she think that she would feel if she had tried her hardest buit got kicked off the team when she bothered to volunteer. But, it made no difference. So, next few lessons. Felt crap again afteer english (you'd think it would be easy seeing as i apprently speak the language.. but no.) And then art (crpa at it) then last lesson, back to netball. Everyone is like, oh hi. And then (you know when people sound like they have been bitching and stuff? well.. it's not just me =/ that thinks that i know i don't think) Amber goes "Oh, i thought you'd dropped out" so then i'm confused, cuz everyone was telling me that I had to go etc. And then I got "nope" and she looks kinda annoyed. And then I'm told I've been made a sub because someone else (amber probably lol) is having my place. So.. ok, but i'm a bit pissed off, cuz tbh i'd actually rather be in french than sat doing nothing in my P.E kit. But then i decide to stick around cuz Geena is a sub too, so i'll have someone to talk to. Then I'm all decided that I'm a sub and everything. Then I'm told I'm playing.. ok. Bascially I'm the fall back person. Then we play to games, win one of them and it's all going ok. Then Hannah says that she wants a go, and i played every single game so i just gave her mine because i couldn't actually be bothered to play again. And.. this is the mean bit that really annoying me Gemma said to Hannah "are you actually good?" and.. nxt time i saw Hannah apprently her leg was hurting and she didn't wanna play anymore. Won the las couple of games. Then I had to Goal Keep this really annoying person and everything was "fuckin annoying" and then she called Gemma fat, so i gave her my famous (haha) detah stare and she said sorry. And.. well, i don't cxare if I'm a snitch but i told the nice PE techer person. Because well.. the 4 girls are all like her and they are in our normal PE group.. and it's actually at the stage where none of us want to work with them because they comment on us and what we look like, they shove us around and stuff, and then if they aren't winning or something they get really bitchy and make it completly obvious that they are talking about you.. so.. argh.

Oh, one last thing, all the chavs are being funnny with the new girl in our form, Viky. And i know why, it's so obvious, it is because for once a new person that has come into the school hasn't instantly gone out with Ozzie or blanked me rose geena deeon and everyone when we tried to be nice. We've made a new friend.. so they don't seem to like her.. =/ and today they were bitching about her then they realised that she was right next to them. It's so unfair.. just because one person doesn't want to be all like they are, doesn't wear their little crappy uniform they all seem to have. Because one perosn has let Geena be friendly and not thought that it's wierd or something. Because she's always really nice to the new people. I guess they just don't like the fact that we haven't got blanked because the person has seen who the chavs are and decided that she wants to be friends with them straight away.

What makes them so much better than us anyway......?