I just.. don't know what to do anymore. I don't expect anyone to understand, i just have to write this. It needs to be written. I can't do it anymore. I can't be enough for her, i can't just agree with everything now, because she is involving people that i can't let her speak he way she does about them. It isn't fair. I know her life has been so hard you would not believe, but it doesn't make it fair. She was the one who started me off yesterday. i was trying, i really was, but then she said what she said and i couldn't be ok. i cried so hard. and she has worried me, told me things. but.. i don't want to leave her, because i hate that so much. i just don't, i don't know. And then mike has been amazing today, and yesterday.. he did make me smile.
oh no.. i'm.. gunna go