feel like crap. went out in the end. was fun. but now? i feel so crap. i have MCR-Disenchanted on. it really isn't helping. i know what the problem is. i have just realised. it's back. the..empty feeling. it was gone for ages. i have been okay for quite a while. it's just the last week. i just feel so utterely rubbush. at everything. who am i kidding? I cant be a nurse. im not gunna be anything. and im really worried about my mum. she is really stressed. i just her worse. i didn't get mad at her tho, yesterday. i was fine and calm. i just want this feeling to go awayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. it's not fair. it stops me from being happy all the time. cuz whatever i do i have it there. i told rose about it but she didn't understand. and robyn took the mick. well, that was last time i had it. ugh. my stomach is killing me. me has just said something sweet. i dont really believe him tho. what do i do? i do nothing. i haven't even told him how i am feeling. i might do. i have to go in a minute anyway. and i kinda doubt he would worry. so i spose he would be a good person to tell. maybe.
