Today has been well..difficult. John is still being horrible because his dvd hasn't arrived, mum is annoyed because she can't chnage John's authadontist appointment and she needs to be doing her work. So,pretty much, everyone is yelling at me. John is so difficult at the moment. I'm sick of having everything I do critisised. I told Rose a couple of the things I am worrying about today. About my mum and John. She only ever really ives one word answers, so I get the feeling that I should kinda shut up. I want to talk to HP about everything. But I won't end up talking. I'll just sit there and pretend that I feel okay i spose. Well.. it really depends on who is in chat more than anything. But as a plus point i sort of had a go at The Infamous Devilm David Serum GHD Chip The 1st today. Him and his friends pushed in front of us in the canteen queue so we had a loud conversation about how annoying it is when people push in front of you. I know it is stupid and lame and everything. But he was horrible to us, so why should we have to make an effort. That is how I feel about a lot of things really. Ugh, I also had a science test today. And I didn't finish. I kept getting distracted. I got bored and I was stuck so I drew a black spot on my hand (was thinking about Pirates Of The Carribean 2 at the time). And then this annoying boy called Andy was doing a wierd thing with a pen and it was distracting. Also a hellicopter kept flying over and we couldn't see it. The worst thing that was distracting was Geena clicking all her fingers. ewww,I really really really hate bones clicking, it's horrible.
Does anyone know how to properly reply to comments? Cuz I don't know if i leave a comment inder their comment or on their blog. Yes, i know, i'm dumb, just people say nice things and I wanna be able to reply so they actually see it. I am really not good with computers, was having an extreme problem in I.T today. I don't see why I need to learn how to use half of these things. I guess that all it comes down to is something that looks good. maybe I could just about get a GCSE in I.T. I wonder if HUgh will come round tonight? I definatly hope not. Because well.. John is moody and John will moan at everything Hugh does then start the hitting thing. Hugh will be stressed anyway because of work and then him and mum willl both be stressed and have an argument. At which point we will then have them yelling at each other. Just hitting himself with things and me sat there yelling at them all to shut up.
Actually, i hope he doesn't come is an understanment. I won't let him in if he does. I think that mum has already screamed everything at him down the phone anyway. And I can kind of see her yelling at dad some time soon aswell. Because she keeps saying why can't he take John to all the hospital appointments and dentist and stuff. Well, to me, the main fact is that she hasn't actually asked him. Not that I think he would do it anyway. He 'wouldn't have the time'. Nobody has time. When I am an adult I am going to try really hard to ahve time for everybody. I am already trying to have time to cheer everybpody up. But I am getting serverly annoyed with them all now. Yes, I get that my mum is upset, but there really is nothing that she can do, she has to accept that. And I also know that John can't help it. I am just SICK SICK SICK of beng the one he takes it out on all of the time. I just feel like not talking to any of them, locking mself away forever. If I had loads of books to read and a bit of food i reckon that I would be ok. Well actually, this is what I want at the momnet, honestly in my selfishnes. I just want a big room, maybe a couple of rooms where only I can go, it has all my favourite books, with more books that I am definalty gunna love to read later. To have a big tv and all the things that I wanna watch and stuff. My anmials (obviously) and a computer that'll do anything I want it too. A big kitchen so that I can make all the most amazing foods in the universe and not get fat. And an amazingly nice shower with amazinly kewl hair products. Also, a hugggggggeeeeeeeeeeee sound system so that I can play (every cd that I could possible want btw) and no one can tell me turn it down. OoOoOoO. And, when I got sick of being on my own My Chemical Romance can come and see me...
Dreams
